Category Archives: anxiety/depression

those bitches

Mental

“I know you have cancer, and I am sorry. Really, I am. I thought I had cancer once, and it was awful. But look, your cancer is really starting to make it hard on everyone around you. You never want … Continue reading

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Spare Us the Cutter

I want to start out by saying that this post, while it might be uncomfortable, is not a cry for help. I do not need you to call the authorities, or my parents, or a paddy wagon. I do not … Continue reading

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The Psychiatrist’s Waiting Room

I signed in for my appointment 10 minutes early, as usual. I paid my copay and high fived myself for having medical insurance. I took a seat in one of the modern looking but surprisingly flimsy plastic chairs in the … Continue reading

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Crying at Work is the Worst

I want there to be nothing wrong with me. I am in a terrible-twos-worthy state of defiance about how my depression is affecting the life I’m trying to build for myself. I want to enjoy a new job that I … Continue reading

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Dawn

I would love to say that I have spent the last 2 months riding the momentum of Victory Month and writing ridiculous numbers of posts that I just haven’t gotten around to publishing. In fact, I’d like to say that … Continue reading

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I Donut Like Panic Attacks

I started a new job this week…well, that was the plan anyway. I worked half of a day on my first day, two days ago, because my cat got very very sick and we ended up having to put him … Continue reading

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How Did I Get Here? (Warning: I Went Free Form!)

I hope you don’t mind a little free-form, brain dump interjection into this victory month. My depression has been pretty bad this week, probably because I’ve had the week off work and didn’t set up any structured activities for myself. … Continue reading

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Today

Today my limbs felt like they were full of lead. I woke up, which, in and of itself was disappointing, and I knew I was going to have a dark day ahead of me. Sometimes you just know. Today simple … Continue reading

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Invisible Fat Victories: Kicking Off Victory Month Early*

I’ve mentioned recently that I have gained some weight over the past few months. I’m on several antidepressant medications that make me feel like a whale, and the depression itself has been helping me eat way more than a reasonable … Continue reading

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Inside the Mind of a Wannabe

Hello, my name is Laney, and I am a wannabe. ¬†There are a lot of things I want to be but never will be: a good dancer, able to draw, ¬†a non-diabetic, coordinated enough to not hit my head on … Continue reading

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